第23章
作者:歌德(J.W. von Goethe) 更新:2021-11-25 10:33
Here I sit gasping for breath,
and struggling to compose myself. I wait for day, and at sunrise the
horses are to be at the door.
And she is sleeping calmly, little suspecting that she has seen me
for the last time. I am free. I have had the courage, in an interview
of two hours' duration, not to betray my intention. And O Wilhelm, what
a conversation it was !
Albert had promised to come to Charlotte in the garden immediately
after supper. I was upon the terrace under the tall chestnut trees, and
watched the setting sun. I saw him sink for the last time beneath this
delightful valley and silent stream. I had often visited the same spot
with Charlotte, and witnessed that glorious sight; and now—— I was
walking up and down the very avenue which was so dear to me. A secret
sympathy had frequently drawn me thither before I knew Charlotte; and
we were delighted when, in our early acquaintance, we discovered that
we each loved the same spot , which is indeed as romantic as any that
ever captivated the fancy of an artist.
From beneath the chestnut trees , there is an extensive view. But
I remember that I have mentioned all this in a former letter, and have
described the tall mass of beech trees at the end , and how the avenue
grows darker and darker as it winds its way among them, till it ends
in a gloomy recess, which has all the charm of a mysterious solitude.
I still remember the strange feeling of melancholy which came over me
the first time I entered that dark retreat, at bright midday. I felt
some secret foreboding that it would, one day, be to me the scene of
some happiness or misery.
I had spent half an hour struggling between the contending thoughts
of going and returning, when I heard them coming up the terrace. I ran
to meet them. I trembled as I took her hand , and kissed it. As we reached
the top of the terrace, the moon rose from behind the wooded hill. We
conversed on many subjects, and, without perceiving it, approached
the gloomy recess. Charlotte entered, and sat down. Albert seated himself
beside her. I did the same, but my agitation did not suffer me to remain
long seated. I got up , and stood before her , then walked backward
and forward , and sat down again. I was restless and miserable. Charlotte
drew our attention to the beautiful effect of the moonlight , which threw
a silver hue over the terrace in front of us, beyond the beech trees.
It was a glorious sight , and was rendered more striking by the darkness
which surrounded the spot where we were. We remained for some time silent,
when Charlotte observed , "Whenever I walk by moonlight, it brings to
my remembrance all my beloved and departed friends, and I am filled with
thoughts of death and futurity. We shall live again , Werther!" she
continued , with a firm but feeling voice; "but shall we know one another
again what do you think ? what do you say?"
"Charlotte," I said, as I took her hand in mine , and my eyes filled
with tears, "we shall see each other again —— here and hereafter we
shall meet again." I could say no more. Why , Wilhelm, should she put
this question to me , just at the monent when the fear of our cruel separation
filled my heart ?
"And oh ! do those departed ones know how we are employed here ?
do they know when we are well and happy ? do they know when we recall
their memories with the fondest love? In the silent hour of evening the
shade of my mother hovers around me ; when seated in the midst of my
children, I see them assembled near me , as they used to assemble near
her ; and then I raise my anxious eyes to heaven , and wish she could
look down upon us , and witness how I fulfil the promise I made to her
in her last moments , to be a mother to her children. With what emotion
do I then exclaim , 'Pardon, dearest of mothers , pardon me, if I
do not adequately supply your place !
and struggling to compose myself. I wait for day, and at sunrise the
horses are to be at the door.
And she is sleeping calmly, little suspecting that she has seen me
for the last time. I am free. I have had the courage, in an interview
of two hours' duration, not to betray my intention. And O Wilhelm, what
a conversation it was !
Albert had promised to come to Charlotte in the garden immediately
after supper. I was upon the terrace under the tall chestnut trees, and
watched the setting sun. I saw him sink for the last time beneath this
delightful valley and silent stream. I had often visited the same spot
with Charlotte, and witnessed that glorious sight; and now—— I was
walking up and down the very avenue which was so dear to me. A secret
sympathy had frequently drawn me thither before I knew Charlotte; and
we were delighted when, in our early acquaintance, we discovered that
we each loved the same spot , which is indeed as romantic as any that
ever captivated the fancy of an artist.
From beneath the chestnut trees , there is an extensive view. But
I remember that I have mentioned all this in a former letter, and have
described the tall mass of beech trees at the end , and how the avenue
grows darker and darker as it winds its way among them, till it ends
in a gloomy recess, which has all the charm of a mysterious solitude.
I still remember the strange feeling of melancholy which came over me
the first time I entered that dark retreat, at bright midday. I felt
some secret foreboding that it would, one day, be to me the scene of
some happiness or misery.
I had spent half an hour struggling between the contending thoughts
of going and returning, when I heard them coming up the terrace. I ran
to meet them. I trembled as I took her hand , and kissed it. As we reached
the top of the terrace, the moon rose from behind the wooded hill. We
conversed on many subjects, and, without perceiving it, approached
the gloomy recess. Charlotte entered, and sat down. Albert seated himself
beside her. I did the same, but my agitation did not suffer me to remain
long seated. I got up , and stood before her , then walked backward
and forward , and sat down again. I was restless and miserable. Charlotte
drew our attention to the beautiful effect of the moonlight , which threw
a silver hue over the terrace in front of us, beyond the beech trees.
It was a glorious sight , and was rendered more striking by the darkness
which surrounded the spot where we were. We remained for some time silent,
when Charlotte observed , "Whenever I walk by moonlight, it brings to
my remembrance all my beloved and departed friends, and I am filled with
thoughts of death and futurity. We shall live again , Werther!" she
continued , with a firm but feeling voice; "but shall we know one another
again what do you think ? what do you say?"
"Charlotte," I said, as I took her hand in mine , and my eyes filled
with tears, "we shall see each other again —— here and hereafter we
shall meet again." I could say no more. Why , Wilhelm, should she put
this question to me , just at the monent when the fear of our cruel separation
filled my heart ?
"And oh ! do those departed ones know how we are employed here ?
do they know when we are well and happy ? do they know when we recall
their memories with the fondest love? In the silent hour of evening the
shade of my mother hovers around me ; when seated in the midst of my
children, I see them assembled near me , as they used to assemble near
her ; and then I raise my anxious eyes to heaven , and wish she could
look down upon us , and witness how I fulfil the promise I made to her
in her last moments , to be a mother to her children. With what emotion
do I then exclaim , 'Pardon, dearest of mothers , pardon me, if I
do not adequately supply your place !
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